Are you listening?

While I was walking I was having a conversation with God or myself about my current struggle. I was discussing why is it hard to get something accomplished when I am trying to take back whats been stolen from me. I was also thinking about if i trust God with his choices for me and part of me does but there was this other side that I am wondering if he hears me at all. Maybe that side that is thinking negative is the one who always tries to defeat or make my life a living hell. I know I trust God but I just want something done badly and during my 2 years of unemployment I wonder if there's a good purpose for me not finding a job around my area. Most of my prayer is about trying to get back on my feet but I wonder if I am doing the right things to even consider God's purpose. =/